Existing: I've been having a lot of birthday reflections

Phew, the vlog continues to be a bit of a punishing schedule (I’m currently up at 5 in the morning trying to make sure it’s finished before I’ve got other things to occupy my day).

I’ve now moved out of Beijing - I was only there over a year but I want to emphasize that I really did enjoy my time there. In fact, if it didn’t feel so strongly that it was just time for me to try something and somewhere new, I would’ve liked to have stayed a little longer.

Anyway, before going off for another few months of world-hopping and living out of my suitcase, I’ve been taking a three week break in Shanghai to, amongst other things, file away what’s left of my belongings, see all my China friends, celebrate my birthday with them and think real hard about what it means to grow up.

So that’s probably why my last two videos are all a bit inward looking.

It’s been part of an initiative where I’ve channeled my anxiety into questioning my assumptions, organizing them into actionable self care, and figuring out what I really might want with goal setting and timeline creating to get there.

In no particular order:

Glowing up for 35

To kick things off, in a hectic five days before my bday, I went and did a whole bunch of things to mark the occasion, figuring out things I could do to make life better for myself across the realms of physical fitness, skills accumulation, do-goodiness, money matters and… well, of course, gettin’ pretty.

1 Habit I’m Proud I Formed Whilst 34

After YEARS, I have finally gotten back into the habit of reading books. Lots of them. I used to be such a bookworm, but I guess during work life, it was hard to find time to pull out a novel and spend some time with it. In Beijing, with my hour long commute, I suddenly was finishing books left and right.

When the year is over, I’ll do a favorites post because there were SO. MANY. GOOD. BOOKS. I read this year. In the meantime, if you want to see what I’ve been perusing, you can follow me on Goodreads.

1 Regret I Have From Year 34

I didn’t get on ADHD meds sooner. The difference is night and day, and I don’t even have to take them regularly. I had been using the stress of work to jumpstart my brain before I began traveling and then the thrill of traveling helped take over that role. Even though I knew it would happen, I didn’t really have a plan for what I would do when neither of those were going on. When I came back to homebase from my India-Tibetan Plateau journeys in June I collapsed for nearly a week, really unable to do anything but get food to eat and wonder why I felt the way I did.

This time around, coming back in August, just one pill made it so that I could find my motivation, churn out an insane amount of content, and get things ready for my next big step.

I don’t know why I held out so long except leftover stubborness over needing help with my brain even as I preached that everyone should not be afraid to get help for their brain.

10 Reminders For Year 35

I made these lol. Yeah, and I branded them too.

Why I Quit My Corporate Career

Taking a moment to explain why I ended this stint in advertising, not with job hunting for another position, but with completely detaching myself from this realm. For now. Maybe.

Yeah. “Existing.” I don’t know. Existential Crisising didn’t fit the little circle logo thing I set up.

…To Be Continued…

I also wrote down several goals I have for this next year, and several paths I’d want to take over the next several years, but they’re still scribbles on a page yet and so I’m giving myself some extra time to interrogate them to see if they make sense. One of these days, when I’m at least first draft happy with what I’ve written down, I’ll post those.